May 17, 2011

This year has been something I didn't expect.

                   It's close to the tears and hugs full of embracing one another while we're saying good bye. As I'm typing this, tears kinda stung my eyes, but it went away. I'm going to miss everyone so much! I'll be leaving next year to go to another school, though this will always still be my school. It's sad to think we're all growing up, all getting our licenses and stuff. The next thing we know, we'll be graduating all together. It'll be fun to laugh back at the times from the past. This sophomore year was crazy. I can't believe it.
                    I've changed A LOT this year. I don't even know where to start. From my looks by my hair, make up. Then there's my personality. I've become stronger as a person, matured up though I'm still immature at times. I miss the past. The old me. But I've become a whole 'nother person this year. Last night I went back into the past and read messages, comments, etc on my Myspace account. I really have changed into a more serious person I believe. This year changed me. All my actions have made me who I am today.
                    This year I struggled a lot. Stressed out like hell, broke apart, breaking down when I didn't know what else to do. That's never happened to me kinda.. But I feel like this year was meant to be in my life to show me what's out there in life. What I have to do, change my mistakes and stuff. If that makes sense. I struggled with my life, with school, people, you get the deal. This year was my first year I had a problem with school. I have my usual times where I get frustrated but this year I struggled like C R A Z Y in geometry. Not only academically but also with my life with my circle of friends and everything. This year showed me so much stuff, I can't express this enough. But even so, I appriciate it. I learned who my real friends were, how sometimes friends fight and just can't even be friends anymore. I learned about my mistakes as a person, how I need to shape up. I learned how to grow up, how to cook. This year was all about learning. Even though I told everyone how much I hated sophomore year, I'm thankful for it. I got something out of it that I didn't realize till around now. I guess that's what high school's for. You learn something new. Not just everyday, but also something like a lesson in maybe a year. But I'll always remember my sophomore year. :p
                Overall I'm glad I got to spend it with the people in my 2013 class. They're all funny people, English & History wouldn't be the same without them. For all my other classes, they all weren't ones that I favored, but I love those 2 classes. Special thanks to those who know who they are. Thank you so much for helping me this year! <3

May 11, 2011

Prom 2012.

                      This week has been all talk about my school's prom. A bunch of people have told me that it was lame. Others told me it was fun. But one thing they all say it that it was memorable. That's great, I'm glad everyone had a fun time. Next year I'll be a junior sooooo I'm able to go into our prom. I'm still thinking on whether or not I should attend.
                    I kinda want to go, I think it'd be fun no matter what. If I go, I have to get a dress and everything. I'd do my hair myself, I don't trust other people doing it. They'd probably do it wrong. Then there's my nails which my cousin is great at, so oh yeah! Free nails. lol I don't like all that plastic crap really, I just like painting it and stuff. Then there's the dress. I have no idea. I think I'll stick with a short one perhaps junior year then senior year go all out like crazy and have a nice gown.
                    My date would of course be my boyfriend. If all you guys are wondering, yes I could have gone to prom but didn't go with him. My boyfriend is a senior, I'm sure everyone knows that. It would have been a 6hoour drive. Coming here and back since he lives 1 and a half hour away from me. Coming here, then going back. Then after prom coming back here then he has to go back. Then we just didn't want to go anymore. Strange huh? So we missed out on his and now were planning on mine. So maybe I'll go to my junior prom just for him. I don't know.

May 3, 2011

Lifes a puzzle

              Isn't it crazy how some things can just mess up so easily? When you try your hardest and what you get back in return is nothing but discomfort. Your just piled more with confusion, maybe you'll get hurt along the way. Who knows? But the thing is that whatever happens, at least you know you tried. That's ONE thing you can't dwell on.
            It's a weird way how everything works some times. You just don't know what's coming until it actually hits you in the face. Then that's when realization kicks in to slap you with reality. And haha, yeah, it's basically beating you up because you were blind enough not to even see it in the first place. But some things you can't see with the naked eye. You can't hear because you don't understand, and you can't feel because you it didn't mean anything to you.
            One thing I really hate is confusion. It makes me feel out of place, like I shouldn't even be in that position in the first place. I'm the type of person who likes things done when I want them, no excuses. When something stands in my way, I fight past it, whatever the obstacle is, there has to be a solution, am I correct? So when I have a problem and it starts to confuse me, it feels as if i'm mentally beating myself up trying to fix things. Like myself, trying to find out what's wrong and what can make myself better. But in the long run it's worth it because if I work and try hard enough, then I'll hopefully get the results I want.

April 26, 2011

Happiness

                   Misunderstandings can lead to something so painful. Happiness can be taken away so quickly. But yet if people try to work things out and just try, I'm pretty sure they can find it again. Happiness is a funny thing. Because it can be in any forms. Really happy, like nothings wrong, but you know, that can't always last. Or maybe it's the happy where it's just 50/50. Your only halfway there. Or the most  painful one where your just partially holding happiness. That one hurts so much.
                   If people were happy once before, it goes on with the saying you can do it again. It may be different, but nothing ever stays the same. It changes. Like us. And by how people change, then their happiness will change, right? But if people want to be happy, then they can make it  happen. It may take time, but if someone is truly commited in trying to, then I can think they can be.
                  But with misunderstandings. Maybe perhaps other people don't see how hard you try to be happy. And when things start to fall into pieces, then that's what causes the pain. Because the situation is like the other person thinks differently. Even if they wanted the same thing, they try differently, or have a different pace of how things are to be wanted. That's so hard. Because if they're both working towards the same goal, then it's going to take time and they should work together. At least make a compromise.

April 14, 2011

Happy New Year!

                         Happy New Year everyone! It's the Cambodian, Laos, and Vietnamese new year this week. :D It lasts for 3 days, longer than the American version of New Years. It's so much fun and so festive around this week. It's in April every year. Sadly I forgot the date, :( but it is always around the 20th something.
                        Every year at this time, my parents get ready for the event. They get food out and clean the house, etc. Normal rituals. Then they set out the food for the dead. So when we sleep, it's kinda as if were telling them to rest in peace, eat up, and just yeah, enjoy the treats we give them. It's fun in a creepy kind of way. Haha.
                       One of the optional things to also do is to make a visit to the local temples. There, you go and give some food to the monk, I think rice but I'm not 100% sure. And then you do some kind of praying. That's suppose to give you good luck for the year or whatever, I'm not really sure because every time I do go to the temple, I always just run off with my friends to hang out since we don't go to the same school. lol It's like a gathering. But it's fun!
Laos New Years^

March 29, 2011

Spring Break!

                  Next week will finally be my spring break! :D I can't wait. I want school to be over with as soon as possible, I'm tired of sophomore year. I hate this year so much, it's way too stressful and I can't take it anymore! A break from this year will be so much fun, awesome, great, any good word.
                   This year, my classes have been too much, like I'm TIRED of everything in it. Especially in geometry. Now I don't have a problem with learning, I do enjoy it. But learning geometry has been such a struggle. I don't find it hard, somewhat, but it's the way perhaps i'm being taught or maybe I just need more help with it. I don't know.
                    I don't enjoy biology at all. It's boring! I'm not a science person at all. So I want my break to come so I can just break away from it all. I need a break, and I love spring, what could be better? Oh yeah, summer break. That way, I wouldn't have school. Yay. -__-

March 18, 2011

The Journey for a place called HOME.

                   This week on this Friday, we watched a clip about these boys called the "Lost Boys". Now these aren't the boys from Peter Pan. These boys are real survivors and are somewhat in hiding. They are trying to go from a different country all the way to another! And they are all mostly under the age of 13! That's crazy!
                   When I watched this video, it made me sad. And I'm sure i'm not the only one who got that emotion from watching it. These children at the time were so young, and so skinny. Knowing the fact that they have to run away from danger, without guidence from their parents, or any family members whatsoever is just so heartbreaking. It's not fair to them and to what they had to go through. This journey they took as like a walk through their own nightmares.
                   Throughout that whole time, they were in constant danger. Can you imagine how scary that is? Especially since they're so little. Plus, without good shelter and enough food, they were very week. And so skinny. It just made me not even want to eat my own food just so I could give them mine when they are in more need for it. And I think it's great that throughout their hard struggle, they went from all that to America, to try to make their life better. And even though I have no idea who they are in person, I'm proud of them. It doesn't even matter that they are probably way older than me. It's just after all that stuff they went too, I can't believe it. And now they want only their education. That's the most important thing to them besides surviving. I'm happy that most of them have had a happy ending.