It's close to the tears and hugs full of embracing one another while we're saying good bye. As I'm typing this, tears kinda stung my eyes, but it went away. I'm going to miss everyone so much! I'll be leaving next year to go to another school, though this will always still be my school. It's sad to think we're all growing up, all getting our licenses and stuff. The next thing we know, we'll be graduating all together. It'll be fun to laugh back at the times from the past. This sophomore year was crazy. I can't believe it.
I've changed A LOT this year. I don't even know where to start. From my looks by my hair, make up. Then there's my personality. I've become stronger as a person, matured up though I'm still immature at times. I miss the past. The old me. But I've become a whole 'nother person this year. Last night I went back into the past and read messages, comments, etc on my Myspace account. I really have changed into a more serious person I believe. This year changed me. All my actions have made me who I am today.
This year I struggled a lot. Stressed out like hell, broke apart, breaking down when I didn't know what else to do. That's never happened to me kinda.. But I feel like this year was meant to be in my life to show me what's out there in life. What I have to do, change my mistakes and stuff. If that makes sense. I struggled with my life, with school, people, you get the deal. This year was my first year I had a problem with school. I have my usual times where I get frustrated but this year I struggled like C R A Z Y in geometry. Not only academically but also with my life with my circle of friends and everything. This year showed me so much stuff, I can't express this enough. But even so, I appriciate it. I learned who my real friends were, how sometimes friends fight and just can't even be friends anymore. I learned about my mistakes as a person, how I need to shape up. I learned how to grow up, how to cook. This year was all about learning. Even though I told everyone how much I hated sophomore year, I'm thankful for it. I got something out of it that I didn't realize till around now. I guess that's what high school's for. You learn something new. Not just everyday, but also something like a lesson in maybe a year. But I'll always remember my sophomore year. :p
Overall I'm glad I got to spend it with the people in my 2013 class. They're all funny people, English & History wouldn't be the same without them. For all my other classes, they all weren't ones that I favored, but I love those 2 classes. Special thanks to those who know who they are. Thank you so much for helping me this year! <3
This week has been all talk about my school's prom. A bunch of people have told me that it was lame. Others told me it was fun. But one thing they all say it that it was memorable. That's great, I'm glad everyone had a fun time. Next year I'll be a junior sooooo I'm able to go into our prom. I'm still thinking on whether or not I should attend.
I kinda want to go, I think it'd be fun no matter what. If I go, I have to get a dress and everything. I'd do my hair myself, I don't trust other people doing it. They'd probably do it wrong. Then there's my nails which my cousin is great at, so oh yeah! Free nails. lol I don't like all that plastic crap really, I just like painting it and stuff. Then there's the dress. I have no idea. I think I'll stick with a short one perhaps junior year then senior year go all out like crazy and have a nice gown.
Isn't it crazy how some things can just mess up so easily? When you try your hardest and what you get back in return is nothing but discomfort. Your just piled more with confusion, maybe you'll get hurt along the way. Who knows? But the thing is that whatever happens, at least you know you tried. That's ONE thing you can't dwell on.
It's a weird way how everything works some times. You just don't know what's coming until it actually hits you in the face. Then that's when realization kicks in to slap you with reality. And haha, yeah, it's basically beating you up because you were blind enough not to even see it in the first place. But some things you can't see with the naked eye. You can't hear because you don't understand, and you can't feel because you it didn't mean anything to you.
One thing I really hate is confusion. It makes me feel out of place, like I shouldn't even be in that position in the first place. I'm the type of person who likes things done when I want them, no excuses. When something stands in my way, I fight past it, whatever the obstacle is, there has to be a solution, am I correct? So when I have a problem and it starts to confuse me, it feels as if i'm mentally beating myself up trying to fix things. Like myself, trying to find out what's wrong and what can make myself better. But in the long run it's worth it because if I work and try hard enough, then I'll hopefully get the results I want.
